Now, three years later, It is still amazing to me to think that the man whom I have been thinking about, praying for, preparing myself for, and loving actually exists. And that in ten days, he is going to be my husband. It's almost surreal to think that this arbitrary man to whom I've been writing is real.
He has a name, an incredibly handsome face, a laugh that makes my smile, a personality that makes my heart melt, and a love for me that often brings me to tears of joy.
It is because this man is real and that I am marrying him in less than two weeks I'm that I shared my journal with him two nights ago.
At first I stumbled over explaining what the journal was and was really hesitant about being so open. After all, I had written these letters having no idea who they would be read to. It didn't take me long to begin pouring out my heart to Ray. I realized as I was reading just how perfect God's plan is because everything I had said fit Ray perfectly. It was as though I was looking at the finished puzzle of prayers I had been praying.
It was incredible to say the least. To be reading to the man to whom I've so long written, that I've deeply desired to meet, and the man I have been so in love with for so long.
There were pages of promises, sincere apologies for giving my heart away prior to him, and a display of the peace that I felt when I gave my heart and its future over to Jesus.
There were also tears of joy, answered prayers, happiness, hope, forgiveness, peace, and of love. So many tears of love.
It was honestly one of the most memorable moments I've shared with Ray. And it makes me that much more excited to vow those promises of love to him in front of our friends, family, and God in just a few short days.
Praise God for His love and mercy to place the man of my prayers in my life and making my him better than I could have ever dreamed.